:: Life when I'm asleep ::

:: Sunday, September 29, 2002 ::

I was at home feeling miserable. My friend was in the hospital being operated on, another friend had just told me she has breast cancer, and I found out something was wrong with my mother. I felt very overwhelmed almost to the point of being lost. I went to confront my mother to find out what was wrong with her. she avoided and avoided the topic. Finally I nailed her and she told me she was pregnant. I fell back as if pushed. I yelled at her for scaring me saying with all the stuff going on in my life she didn't have to keep that from me as it just made it worse. I yelled at her that I hoped she had a red headed little boy.. and stormed out of the room. Sitting alone, i felt like my life was like a soap opera.. and poof it was. I was suddenly in springfield and phillip was talking to me about his aunt arriving in town.and how he needed to pull off this major coup to keep his company. so I dressed up as a male army colonel and went about scamming some papers out of a guy. after a few attempts, I was called in while the guy was having a problem. he was laid out prone on the ground unable to move. His wife was there. I told her that the documents were very important and classified and that I would need to take them for safe keeping. before she could react, I took them and left. I worked my way out of the building.. going around a few twists and turns. by the time I got to the door I had someone chasing after me. I didn't turn around. I kept walking, and in the middle of the street was a line that my persuers could not cross.. like I was leaving an embassy. Once I got across the street, I stripped out of my costume, and noticed a young man who had followed me out was stairing at me. I smiled and waved at him, and went into the building, which was an elementary school and asked for a job

:: posted by the sleeping one 7:26 AM [+] ::
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naked I walked into my old bedroom that had two windows facing the short dead end street we lived on. I realized the windows were open and the blinds were up, so I scooted down and grabbed some article of clothing and held it in front of me as I went up to the window to pull the blind down. as I did, I heard voices of kids in the dark who had seen me. I went back to my bed and sat down and started writing. My mother came in and asked what I was doing. I explained I was writing down my dreams. She stood over my shoulder and looked and made comments about how silly certain things were.. wondering why I would do such things, and why my name was different than my real name. I tried explaining again that it was a dream and not reality, but she didn't get it. so I started ignoring her and continued writing....

I was with a bunch of friends, and we decided to go to the movies a bit later on. We weren't sure what to see, so they went off to find out. I went in the other direction to do something to waste time till the show started. I ended up on a transport vehicle that took me in the totally wrong direction. I tried to get off, but I was held back. I talked to some people about where they were going and when they thought it would stop so I could get off. We became friendly, but when the vehicle stopped, I gathered up my things and found the end and jumped off. I could tell my new friends were sad, but I explained I had somewhere to go. I was in the middle of a field with a large dirt path down the middle where we had just gone. I figured I would follow that back, which I did, trying to avoid mud holes, which was kinda impossible, so I ended up stepping in them in my black boots, which upset me a little... but I figured it would clean off. I got back into town only minutes before the movie was going to start. I caught up with a few of my friends, but the kids with whom I wanted to spend some quality time with were already seated and we couldn't sit near them. We looked for seats, and found some up front but the row was half covered by the holo-screen.... meaning we could see the action on one side of the screen ok, but the other half, would be lost. I said I wanted to find other seats, and we got up and walked toward the back and found some other seats off at an angle. We sat in those, as the movie started, and the screen adjusted so we were watching it straight on. The movie was ok, but a little on the lame side. It was an audience participation movie, so the people around us would often stand up or sit down according to the instructions of the characters on the screen. I was starting to not feel well so I wasn't standing up. a few times when the audience stood up, someone massaged my scalp. I figured it was the people behind me, so I turned around to thank them cause it felt good. They looked at me strange, and I heard a voice next to me laugh and say it was him.. I looked at it was the hubster. When looking at him, I caught site of the people next to us upset cause the part about the chess board hadn't come up yet. I looked at their chess pieces and they were very very cool looking. stoic but rounded.. like weebles on steroids with flat bottoms. carved out of black and white stone. when intermission came, I asked why they were throwing that, and they said cause they wanted the larger set, and they couldn't find the manufacturer any more,... they showed the insignia, it was k-pax. I said I knew that label, and said I was sure I could find it. I went off in search of it, and ended up in the mall and found a guy scrubbing tile with one of those new fangled products that promises that it will clean your grout and stubborn stains in seconds. I watched him for a moment, then jumped in, and was amazed how fast the rust and scum was coming off the bath tub and toilet with a stone. when it was full of gunk, I took it over to a bucket and pulled a little lever on the product and all the dirty water and soap came out of the sponge. I was raving about the product. One of the staff behind the counter at the pharmacy came over and said one of the customers had a question. I went over and this old woman of her late 60's asked me if there were any of those things in stock. I told her that it wasn't in yet, but to check back, but the guy I was cleaning with, called the woman over and gave her what looked like an ordinary sponge with nylon covering it. She was ecstatic, I was concerned it wasn't the right product, but I got distracted by a woman coming in with bunnies. I ran to the front of the store, and looked out side and saw that other stores were closing, so I shut the doors to the store, and they were covered in a springie easter design with lots of bunnies on them. Soon there was a knock on the door and someone else came in with bunnies. I went out back to check on the customers, and when I got back there, I found tables full of different types of bunnies with handlers at each table. One bunch looked like meringue cookies, with strips running to the ears in a wavy pattern in a buttery color. I stopped to talk to that handler, and commented on how soft the bunnies were, and she started talking about their tails and how wonderful they were, and how they were there for a judging contest, and how she hoped hers would win.

:: posted by the sleeping one 4:59 AM [+] ::
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I was at a friends house, and a bunch of us were going to go out to dinner. We made the arrangements and decided on who was going to go in which car, and we all headed out side. In the confusion, I missed my car, and realized there wasn't going to be enough room for me to go, so I went back inside the garage and sat down. another friend told me to get up off my butt, and I told her there wasn't enough room for me to go so I was going to stay behind, and she insisted there was enough room. we bantered back and forth a few times, and so I went out to see, and there was plenty of room. it so didn't jive with the plans so I was confused. I figured they must have added another car. My friend then asked me if I wanted to go spend the night at her house afterwards, and I tried to figure out the logistics of that, but gave up quickly and just said yes. We got in the car, and ended up at the local amusement park.there was a threat of a wild fire, and I was talking with one of the owners about their fire prevention.. and the fact that they didn't have any.. and if a. caught on fire, then b would.. and it would likely catch on c d e and then f till he lost the whole thing. He looked at me like he had never thought of that. we were walking towards the back of the park, and I made some suggestions to use teh log flume water if things caught on fire.. cause if its on fire, you don't really need water in the ride any more.. around the back that is usually all woods, I saw they were developing back there, and there were a bunch of small houses. I thought they looked real small, and it turned out to be dog houses. We walked through the woods and my friend and I ended up back in town.. it had a metropolis feel to it. We went towards another cabin that was near a cliff.. and looking out we saw two creatures flying in the air. I was totally confused as to what they were, but my friend told me with out hesitation that it was godzilla and godzukie.. we watched them for a while, and then they flew towards us. My friend went right up to them, but I got scared, and tried to hide in the front of the cabin in the porch area... but godzukie smelled my cotton candy and came looking for it. I threw a bit out to him as he was getting closer, trying still to not be seen. Godzukie went after the piece of candy but godzilla was not happy about it and went looking for the source. My friend called to gozilla and me, and he turned to her and i tried, but was frozen with fear. she called again, then came and got me. We went down a passage and were with godzilla and godzukie. They were now just larger than we were, not super sized. Godzilla talked now too. we had a small conversation before he worked in the a 'superfly snuker'.. a move that a wrestler made when I was still in highschool. I laughed, and explained how my sister told me all about the superfly..

:: posted by the sleeping one 5:45 AM [+] ::
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I was back in highschool, but I was who I am today. Apparently there had been a "recall" and we all needed to learn something. It was lunch time, and I was considering cooking a pizza I had, when "something" happened. The building shook and an alarm sounded. everyone rushed for the exit, I still had my pizza in my hand. I put it into a pan, and considered putting it into the oven to cook when someone yelled at me to leave. I was working on it, so I basically ignored them, but I didn't stop to put extra cheese on it. I looked down and noticed I was dressed inappropriately. I went down the row of tables to my locker and got out some clothes. I wanted the soft green pull over, but when I got back to the desk I had the howard the duck top. I went back for the pull over, but ended up with a blue top. I left the room and headed down the stairs. I had to go into a classroom because the stairs ended there. They were teaching class. I tried to excuse myself, but the teacher wanted me to do him an errand first. I told him I wasn't appropriately dressed to do what he was asking. He said I looked dressesd to him, and I looked down at my bare feet and assured him I wasn't. He saw them, agreed, and I was on my way again. I had to duck through short doors and crawl through other areas, but I finally made it. I was walking away when Rene saw me and called to me. She was quite angry that I was leading "HER" life. I tried to ask her what she meant about that, but she just flew at me and attacked me. I deftly pushed her to the side. This made her angrier, so she came at me again. I knocked her to the ground again. She got up again and started yelling all kinds of accusations at me. Calling me a slut and a theif and other horrible things. I asked her for proof but she wasn't listening to me, she just continued to yell. We were creating kind of a crowd at this point. so when she attacked me again I "put the moves" on her and subdued her to the ground. I then started to remove her black wedge strappy sandle shoes. She did NOT want me to remove them and faught me, but in a few moments they were off, and so was I. People started accusing me of stealing them. I ran down the lane to an area where there were high cliff type formations with a narrow path between them to a body of water of somesort. I ditched her sandles, but in my hands were others. One was my flipflop, the other a brown sandel that I love. I swam using them as 'fins'. When I got to the other side, I crawled out and grabbed a sweater. I could hear people still persuing me, so I continued on and was back inside. I entered this area with small lamp on a desk. The lamp was designed to look like a candleabra. I quickly walked up to it, and started spinning the sticks on it. they were numbered like a combination lock. I moved the first one with out even realizing I was doing it. The second one. the third one, the fourth one was four rotations alternatly to #18. When I finally reaced the 18 the fourth time the pannel next to the lamp opened up. I crawled through just as I heard people getting ready to enter the room. I quickly shut the pannel behind me. I saw a hook, so I took off the sweater and hung it up, and then a thought hit me, and I removed part of the sweater from the hanger, and put a little gold key with a hoop on it on the hanger, and put the sweater back. I then realized I was in a crowded closet. it was full of boxes and stuff. When I opened the door, a number of small animals ran out. Puppies and kittens were everywhere. I laughed and gathered them back up and put them in the closet. the kittens though seemed big enough to go back to the shelter so I boxed them up and took them to my car. I was driving down the road when I saw a dog lying in the middle of my lane. I slowed down and pulled off to the side of the road. I jumped out of the car, and went over to it. It was a really pretty dog, medium in size, longer hair, black and brown and white. He seemed happy to see me, so I patted him and told him he couldn't stay in the middle of the road. He wimpered. I decided to take him to the shelter with me. I started to gather him up and realized he couldn't use his back legs. I gathered him up in my arms and carried him back to my car and put him in the cage I had in the front seat. It was a three part cage with different levels. as I was driving off i realized that the cage was unstable. At that moment I saw blue lights and pulled over. The cop asked me what I was going to do with the dog he saw me pick up, I explained he was hurt and I was going to take him to the shelter on the other side of town He offered to give me an escort, but I explained I needed to fix up the cage first to make sure I didn't do any more harm to the dog. He helped me and off we went. I thought it was lucky that I put the kittens in a box instead of the cage

:: posted by the sleeping one 4:57 AM [+] ::
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I was at a wedding and my mouth hurt. I tried to live through it, but it hurt more and more and other parts were becoming numb. I tried to sneak out of the reception before it really started, and I ran into the wedding party on the way in. they were wearing red and torquoise outfits with red sparkles. In the bathroom, my mouth was bloody, and one of my teeth fell out into my hand. Another tooth seemed loose. I felt like I had been hit in the face. I looked at the numb part of my lip, and realized I had a huge kanka soar. I left the party and went home to the house I grew up in. One of my father's old work trucks was in the front yard, front facing the house. I didn't want to confront my family at the moment, so I went for a walk. My neighbors put their trash out, and there was some interesting stuff in it. I picked a few things out I liked, and left a old coffee decanter there. I went back to the house, and handed an old baby / child carrier to my sister. It went over the shoulders, so the baby was behind her head. it was kinda cool looking, and she liked it. I also had a bathroom set that had everything but the toilet seat which had been removed. it was a rubber duckie type set.. with a shower curtian, hand towels, tooth brush holder. I had picked something else out I gave to my father. it had a yard sale type price tag on it. I went in the house to my room, but it was all reorganized, I was very unhappy.

:: posted by the sleeping one 3:15 PM [+] ::
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I went back to work for the last company I worked for, but in a different capacity. In stead of internet technical support, I was now working in the mental health support center. It had been a while since I worked the phone system, so I needed a refresher course. I was also pretty sure I couldn't sign on with my old ID, so I asked for help. The supervisor came over and gave me disgusted looks and sighs and just set the phone up for me, and said push here to take a call, and push here to be out of the queue then walked away. She had left me in the queue, so a call came through. It was a woman who had a daughter who went to a city sponsored class, and at the end of every class, they served cake and punch to the kids, and asked for donations for the next classes goodies. She felt bad that she couldn't contribute. I suggested that she come up with fifty cents or a dollar to donate.. to keep it wrapped up in her hand, and slip it in quietly. She was sure they would know it was only such a little amount, I told her that if she could afford that, then she was doing all she could and to not feel bad. She said she'd try it and hung up. The second call was from a guy who was drowning in his debts. The office had suddenly shifted and was outside, so I missed a great deal of his early ramblings due to the wind and noise. I caught the tail end though and was sure of his issue, but instead of assuming, I explained to him that I missed the first part of his call due to noise, and asked if he needed help with overwhelming debt. He said he did. I referred him to consumer credit counseling. Explained that they work with the creditors to stop interest if possible, and reduce your monthly payments, and could lower his monthly payments to something reasonable. He was unsure.. thinking it was debt consolidation, but I explained it wasn't, and he said he'd go give it a try. I took myself out of the queue at this time for a break. I walked over to the road where there was a chest high wall. I was leaning on the wall talking to a friend, when a woman came up to me and slipped me five one dollar food stamps and thanked me profusely, and then turned around and left. I watched her go across the street, up the stairs of a building and then inside an apartment. I looked at my friend with a confused look on my face. My friend explained that I had once saved her from being evicted from her apartment by buying her some butter. I still had no recollection of the matter, nor could I fathom why butter would save someone from being evicted, but I let it go and went back to work. The weather had turned considerably, and by the time I was on my next call, the wind had picked up and there was snow and sleet pelting me. A big cat came and rescued me, gave me my coat, and sent me on my way home. I stopped at a pub. walking in, I had a feeling my skirt was riding up in the back due to the coat. I put my hand on the back of my leg to find out, and found it had, but not to an indecent level. There were cat calls anyway. I pulled it down and found a seat in the back. there were several other people sitting on the benches that lined the walls. We were watching a large TV in the corner.. although while I was looking at it, I was more lost in my thoughts wondering about the cat who saved me, and how long Id be able to sit here with out buying anything before I was harassed. As soon as I was warm, I headed home. I went in the back door into the kitchen of the house I grew up in. There were remnants of many things being baked or cooked. There was also a dozen dunkin donuts there. I took one, and went into the other room. I sat and talked for a while, then decided it was time to leave. I went back through the kitchen and saw the donuts were mostly gone, so I packed up the remaining which were my favorites, and took them with me. I got in my car, and I saw my sister. She asked me if I was coming back the next day for the birthday festivities. I told her I wasn't sure if my schedule would allow for it, but I wanted to. She asked me then if I had taken the donuts and I said I had. She asked for a couple to substitute as a birthday cake. I told her how cheep that would be, using day old donuts for birthday cakes, and told her to get some new ones, and left

:: posted by the sleeping one 4:21 AM [+] ::
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I went back to work at the racket. Back to the early shift. The morning despite having nothing to do was hectic.. so when a guy came up to the desk looking for something I was out of sorts. We eventually got what he wanted, and he asked for specific change. I opened up the drawer, to find there was very little money in there, but surprisingly exactly what he asked for.. four ones and two fives.
When he left, I was going to get more money for the till, but I got very hungry, so I broke out my lunch. I had been surprised that morning when the bread was still good.. but looking down on the sandwich now, there were spots of mold on the bread.

:: posted by the sleeping one 4:21 AM [+] ::
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