:: Life when I'm asleep ::

:: Tuesday, June 25, 2002 ::

there was a major storm during the night. Snow, sleet, hail.... it was a mess. In the morning, the hubby had to go to work, so he up and left. I had to go out too... When I went to the door, I saw the snow, and I was ticked that he hadn't shoveled off the porch. I stepped on it, and found it was solid. I walked around the corner and looked at my car and it was covered. g's spot was empty, like he just drove out... and he hasn't cleaned off my car like he normally does. I was kinda ticked, but then I realized it was kind of difficult, so I just turned around and went back inside

:: posted by the sleeping one 2:03 PM [+] ::
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:: posted by the sleeping one 1:59 PM [+] ::
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"growing up" and acting like an adult was the theme of the night in several different ways.. only one of which I can remember.

I had spent several years lost. But last night I was found. Everyone was so happy to have me back. I was being re-acclimated to my environment, aka being shown around, when I thought it would be funny to run down a corridor and hide. but the person I was with didn't find me, and I ended up getting lost since the corridor ended up turning into the woods. I eventually found someone who could lead me back to the main event room. along the way he told me it wasn't a good idea to run away when you don't know the lay of the land. I got back and there was a big feast going on. Lots of yummy foods, but I didn't feel like eating. Again I was yelled at for getting lost.

:: posted by the sleeping one 6:03 AM [+] ::
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I had a fight with G. I was so angry I up and left and went home. My parents were living in the house I grew up in. they were supposedly out of town, so I decided to sleep in my old bed and make some decisions in the morning. I called up an old friend to talk. He came over. we talked for a while, then I said I was tired. My old room didn't look exactly like it did while I was growing up, but it was close enough. I invited my friend to sleep in my bed with me, and he accepted. He is a big buff beautiful bald man. He took off his shirt, and crawled into bed. I was in a silk nightie.. I crawled in next to him, and cuddled up on his chest. He wrapped the blankets around us, so we looked naked from anyone walking in... which happened. My parents came home. My mother looked in my room and saw us, and was mortified. She screamed and went to talk to my father. I heard mumbling. My friend had woken up. I told him just to pretend to be asleep as I didn't want to deal with this right now. My mother came back in the room with an ice cube, and rubbed it over my lips. I didn't move. She went away. More sobbing, more talking.. she came back, and took my arm. I felt a prick on my arm. I opened my eyes and saw she had a very large needle in her hand with black twine/rope/thread in it. I pushed her away then screamed at her and asked her what she thought she was doing. She didn't say anything, so I just kept on ranting and screaming at her. We ended up in the kitchen, where I asked her if she intended to use it to write something in my arm. she still didn't say anything but hung her head. I then accused her of liking g more than her own daughter, and I threw the needle out the door. Unfortunately the twine got caught in my hand and it fell to the floor. My mother made a dash for it, but I grabbed it before she did, and threw it out again. My mother then screamed that if anything happened to that needle, Id have to pay for it. I said fat fucking chance, and left and went back to my room. My friend and another guy were in there now. I said something along the lines of this was it, and I was going to pack up and leave and never come back. I went to get dressed,. pulling of my nightie with out a second thought, standing there in my panties, pondering what to put on. I grabbed a tank top, and some shorts. My friends didn't know what to do, so I told them I would pick stuff out, if they could box it up Id appreciate it. They were glad to have something to do. they both hugged me and went out the back door to get some boxes. I sorted through some clothes, and some stuffed animals, making decisions as to what would come with me. There were clothes I'd never seen before that were in dry cleaning bags. one had a necklace that was unbelievably cool. It had two balls as the focus, but the clasp was amazing. It was also a ball, but you had to rotate the halves before the end would come out, which was actually a leopard encrusted with diamonds. I then came across some photos taped to the wall. I pulled some off, and tried to take the tape off a couple of them. One was a picture of my cousin russ and his daughter alyssa when she was three and they were sledding. I was transported to that time, which was a family christmas party. I talked to my uncle, and he gave me a big bag of party goodies, and told me my parents were good people. My friend then burst in the room, and told me I had to see something. I followed him and ended up walking on a wrap around porch, and into a larger room, where there was a young girl. I told her I was leaving, and she cried. I told her Id take her with me, and asked what she wanted to take. She told me she wanted a large kitchen play set. I tried to explain why it wouldn't work, but I could see if I actually said it, Id break her heart. Technically it belonged to my mother. I thought about offering to buy it, but then realized she'd never let me, so I gathered it up and just took it. I went back to the large room, and a concert was starting. My friend warned me that my mother was coming. so I jumped on stage and hid behind a speaker.... but half way through the show, the speaker started to turn. I panicked, and tried to stay hidden behind it. I balanced myself on my hands, lifting my body up off the ground. I had to extend a leg to stay in balance. A talent agent saw me and stopped the entire show, gushing over me.

:: posted by the sleeping one 4:09 AM [+] ::
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I was at school. I was wearing heals, nylons and a home made dress. I was being stalked by a classmate and I didn't know why. I moved around in the school. I walked into a room that was inhabited by my aunt. My counsins came in the room and pulled me to the couch and we sat and talked for a bit. I relaxed enough to put on a facial mask. It was green. I eventually washed it off, and left. I ended up in a bathroom type room, and saw that the mask hadn't completely come off. I tried to scrub it off, but it wasn't coming. Some one suggested I use soap. So I used soap, and it worked. I turned around to thank the person, and it was the woman who was stalking me, so I walked out the door and kept walking trying to get away. My nylons started falling down, but yet I kept walking. She caught up with me, and taunted me and pushed me. I was getting angry cause I didn't know what I did. I eventually got away, and I decided I had to take my nylons off to make this work, so I did, and threw them away in a bucket that had other nylons in it. I put my shoes back on, and walked on. I went to the library, and then through some classrooms. I ended up at the front door, where I ran into Rae. She and I were childhood friends. I asked her if she knew why the girl was stalking me, and she said she did. She said it had something to do with this prostetic enhancement, which I took to mean a male genitalia, but it only looked like a silicon disk about the size of your palm. I asked who's it was, but before she could answer the girl showed up again and started yelling and swearing at me and she grabbed my hair and threw me to the other side of the room. I tried to fight back, but I was pretty ineffectual. I saw a male friend of mine who had a crush on me. I called to him to help, and he ripped her off me and started 'explaining' why she shouldn't do things like that to me. I ran over to Rae to ask who it was again, and she showed mthe prostetic that now looked like something that would cover a set of balls with small soft latex spikes like those on massage gloves, and it also would cover part of the shaft, probably to hold it on. I looked on the inside, and there written in ink was vincennie. I took it to mean vincent, or vinnie. I only knew one guy with that name/nickname. I couldn't believe he would even know I was alive, let alone lament over me. I stood there in shock for a few moments, till the girl grabbed my hair again. I grabbed her arm and threw her to the side. I went after her, and stood next to her and bent down to look her right in the eye and said something along the lines of "just because he likes me doesn't mean you have the right to terroize me. Just because I don't love him to no end doesn't mean he is worth any less. This is just wrong. I can't do anything about it anyway!" and then I went to find my male friend, to make sure he was ok. He was. I hugged him and told him I had to leave, and so I left. I walked out the front door and got on the bus that would take me to the house I grew up in. I sat next to someone and talked all the way home. We eventually got to the street, and I continued to talk. The bus sat there. while I was talking, I saw the truck my parents sold pull up to the house and knock on the door. They realized no one was home, and got back in the truck and started to drive away. I banged on the bus window to get their attention. They saw me and stopped. So I got off the bus. A young boy got off with me saying "geeze connie, I didn't think you'd ever get off". I shuffled his hair, and sent him down the stree to his house. I stopped and talked to the blonde woman who was driving the truck. She said she had come to see my parents since they needed to talk to a doctor, and my mother said come any time. but when she knocked on the door, she remebered that they had moved. I said yea, they moved down town, and told them I could take them there if they took me home. She agreed, and called to her friend, who was in a large van/rv. I asked if they planned to talk about all the children to the doctor, and she assured me she wouldn't take up much of my parents time. I thought what do I care, but I didn't say anything. They had to reorganize everyone to get me on board so I could bring them to their new house. I went into the second vehicle. Inside it looked like a large den. One of the women was trying to find something I could sit myself up against like a seatbelt. I wanted to tell her that I was fine just where I was, but decided against it. One of the guys wanted to know where I lived so they could take me home afterwards. I said I was about as far away from this part of town as you could get and still be in this town.

:: posted by the sleeping one 4:53 AM [+] ::
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I was at a friend's house for the first time. She was giving me the grand tour. It was a dark, strangely built house. at one point she showed me a laqured brown / amber stair case that was way too narrow for an adult to use. She said it was the back entrance to the childrens area. She then brought me outside to another room.it was empty, and waiting for me. I went to work, setting up my stuff. which consisted of four large carnival stuffed animals. While I was setting up, she called me to come to the house. i picked up a pair of pants off the floor, put them on and went to the house. I was in the kitchen which was big, but mostly long. I pulled something out of a draw when she told me I had just inherited a logging company and land. I was then in another office/room where I was given an wooden inlay map of the world. There was a gunshot hole a little north west of DC. When I pointed it out to the guy giving me the tour, he said there were some issues with this particular company and that was a result of one of them. I joked that it was too bad it wasn't right on the capitol so it would at least look right. The guy smiled at me and went on with the tour. I wasn't sure I wanted to own anything that might get me shot at, so I left. I ended up working again for my last job, which was giving out technical support to dial up customers. Matt was there. He hadn't done it in a long time either and had just been called in to help out. He had an issue where someone's name servers were set to 127.0.0.1 He didn't understand... well technically he forgot. I reminded him that those numbers were what the virus scanner put in to help it scan mail for viruses (which useally ends up in the incoming mail server setting, not the name servers) so I tried to tell him the right name servers, but I couldn't remember the numbers off the top of my head. I knew they ended in two and four. We ran around asking others what they were, and eventually I remembered and told him. After, someone came up to me and asked me where my car was parked. I asked why, and they said they wanted to make sure we were all parked in the right spot. I told them, and went about my business. the person came back a little later saying they had to move it, told me where it was, and said it would be better if I walked the back way to get to it. I wasn't happy about this. When I left work, I was grumbling. It was late and dark and icy. I forgot to go the back way to start, and when I ran into three other people from work, I remembered, and turned around. I almost slipped on the ice. When I made it to the garage, I was floored. my car was smashed into a wall. I looked around and found a group from work. I went up to them and pointed at my car, and they just pshawed it off, and showed me they're latest experiment. it was to redo my matress. They had taken appart my queen size pillow top matress to make a new one, and so far they only had something the size of a large couch cushin. I was floored. I started yelling at them asking them if they thought that was anywhere near compairable, and asking what I was supposed to sleep on, not to mention drive. They were stunned that I didn't appreciate what they did

:: posted by the sleeping one 5:45 AM [+] ::
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I volunteer at the animal shelter, and today I went and had a project, to clean up the barn and return all the bottles. There were a TON of them. It took me seven or so hours to tidy it all up, put them all in boxes, and stack them so it would be easy to return them. I even considered dragging the little pond near by for other bottles cause I knew it would be full of them, but I knew they would be gross, so I decided against it.

I went to my supervisor at the shelter and told her I was done. She was totally impressed and recommended I go to the lunch room and pick up the few there and any donations and then we could get someone to take them all.. so I went into the lunch room, which was 20 or so long tables, like you'd find in a school cafeteria. I made an announcement that Id appreciate it if everyone would pass their empty bottles and any donations to the ends of the table near the outer walls. I went around collecting. One tall thin black guy wanted to make a 50$ credit card donation. So I took his card and information to the credit card machine and processed it. Unfortunately I processed it for 500$ and didn't notice till I was almost back to the table. I continued to the table, explained the situation, and went back to correct it. I processed the return for 500$ then charged 50$ and went back to the guy, and had him sign the slips, when he pointed out that on the 500$ return, there was also a charge for 1$ I was floored and frustrated, so I called over someone else and asked them to correct it. I finished up the collections, and put them in the barn. I was exhausted, so I opted out of doing more work, and went and sat outside the shelter, which was across from a small toy store with a bus hanging from a flag pole sign. I watched people drive and walk by. Then a smaller SUV came by, and it was packed with people my own age having a lot of fun. I recognized them as people I knew. I wanted to join them, but I knew I wasn't going to be welcome. They drove off, and I sighed a big sigh, and went back to watching people. There was a kid who was hanging out a window playing with the school bus. My supervisor came over and sat next to me, and started telling me what a great job I was doing and how she really appreciated me. I was only half listening, cause I was afraid the school bus was going to fall and hit someone. And low and behold in the next second, it fell. It missed hitting anyone, but it ended up hitting something and causing a big noise and a huge mess. I got up and ran over to help.

:: posted by the sleeping one 5:22 AM [+] ::
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I went back to work at the slave (local grocery store). I went back to the service desk and Pam was still the boss. When I showed up for work, there were two other people working the desk, and pam was working in the back office. I knocked on the back office door to get my till. Pam gave it to me and I went out to put it in the register, after taking her till out of the third station. When I gave her back her till, the other two workers left. I was left to run the entire desk on my own. But Im effecient, so while annoyed, I could live with it. I took an eletric bill from a guy, sold a few lottery tickets, and gave directions to someone else. While I was in the middle of helping another customer, the guy with the bill came back to complain saying he'd said 10$ on the eletric bill, and I'd only put five on it, and not given him any change. I was too busy to talk to him, and he was shouting.. so Pam came out to calm him down. She looked through my register reciepts and it showed I only charged him 5$.. she even counted down my till to see if I was over, and I wasn't. Surprisingly pam was on my side when dealing with the guy. It felt quite strange.

:: posted by the sleeping one 5:10 AM [+] ::
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I needed to get on a speedboat.. I was on a dock with houdini the kitten, and I climbed into the boat. Someone untied me, and I tried to navigate the boat quickly down the river.. but I couldn't drive it fast and pay attention to the kitten. I put the kitten down and went faster, but I realized I was tramatizing the kitten, so I pulled over at a house. I grabbed the kitten and went into the house. I explored it, and found a large bird cage. It had three different levels... and the plug to the bottom level was blocking the second level, so I moved it and put the kitten in the bottom level. Thats when I got yelled at for putting a cat in with a bird. I looked in the cage again, and up in the top corner, there was a parakeet. and the kitten was now a full grown cat. I pulled the cat out. The guy yelled at me some more for moving the plug, saying the bird couldn't get to the bottom level, cause it hurt his feet. I appologised, and left. There was a large full moon, so I could see easily. I was downtown. All of a sudden I realized that there was going to be a lunar eclipse. I ran down the street to try to find a good view point. It was pretty spectacular.

:: posted by the sleeping one 5:39 AM [+] ::
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I found a hamster inside a brass lantern case.

:: posted by the sleeping one 8:12 AM [+] ::
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I took my set of foster kittens in for their check up, and a producer/commercial director saw them and said they would be PURRRFECT for this new commercial he is doing, and wanted my permission to use them. I said ok, and after the check up, I collected them up and brought them home. The next morning they were gone. I went on a search for them. I searched everywhere.. Even went to the mall where I saw other cats. Very cool looking cats, one was auburn colored, and the other was an auburn tiger cat. I kept searching. Ended up in an elevator that was unsteady... I have a tendancy to find EVERY unsteady elevator ever. The elevator eventually started rising at a 45 degree angle and didn't that freak me out. When it eventually stopped, I got out and decided to walk down the stairs (because the elevator missed my floor and ended up 10 flights higher than I wanted to go). The stairs were clear plexiglass, and way too narrow for normal stairs. I eventually negotiated my way through, and was recruited to help carry a bunch of animals to Kirsten's car. Unfortunately I tripped, and the cage with the tadpoles and the bunnies broke, and I spent the next few minutes trying to collect everyone back up. by the time kirsten got to me, I was an emotional wrek thinking Id hurt everyone, or something. Kirsten calmed me down, and helped reorganize everything, and we brought them to her car. I resumed my search for my kittens, eventually finding them. Unfortunately they were in pretty bad shape. They had lumps and bumps all over their sides, and were just a mess emotionally. I was devistated.

:: posted by the sleeping one 7:40 AM [+] ::
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I had my family over to the house. My mother kept grousing about how dirty my toilet is. On and on and on and wouldn't give in. Finally I told her if she didn't like it she could clean it. So she did.

:: posted by the sleeping one 10:22 AM [+] ::
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my friend was kidnapped by someone I knew. I was pretty sure she was going to be safe for a while, but I wasn't sure.. I tried to get her released, but I couldn't do it. I felt horrible, and spent hours talking to her trying to make her feel better, letting her know I was doing everything I could to get her out to get her home to her hubby and her boys. the person who kidnapped her also had a baby doll that spouted some sort of blood type of fluid out of his mouth. This totally appauled myself and my friend. She told me to get out of there and to get the police and get her out despite any harm that might come. I ran out and down the stairs, and through the parking lot, out behind the building and through more cars, and finally found someone and told them what was going on, and the person called the police on a cell phone. I was sent home to wait for the outcome. I was distraught, so I went to my friend's house. Her husband had just found out she'd been killed. I broke down in tears

:: posted by the sleeping one 9:00 AM [+] ::
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